“Remembering you are going to die is the best way I know
to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose.
You are already naked. There is no reason not to follow your heart.”
It would be an understatement to say that the last few months have been busy. However, despite my insecurities and doubts about everything, I am stepping out confidently in the direction of my dreams. School this semester has been an adventure in its own right, as I grapple with endless group work, uninteresting course work and a fatigue I just can’t seem to shake. However, there are things to celebrate. I recently submitted an application to be a student volunteer with a community based tourism development project in northern Vietnam, funded in part by Capilano University and the PATA Foundation. This project is exactly where I want to be – it aims to bring sustainable tourism development and skills-based training to the ethnic minority groups living in the Sapa region. I feel immensely intimidated by the whole process but knew that if I didn’t apply, I would regret it for the rest of my life. My application was short-listed (I almost didn’t believe it) and tomorrow is the first group activity and interview. I am so nervous that my stomach is in knots and muscles are seizing up in places I didn’t even know muscles existed. I’m so incredibly passionate about this project that I fear it will cause me to falter and become overwhelmed by emotions. However, there is neither time nor energy to devote to such negative thoughts and I must focus on reminding myself that I have something to offer, no matter how small. All I can do is be myself and try my hardest, knowing that I may not be selected but that I have tried.
Another exciting event on my horizon is my London adventure. In less than two months, I will be heading to London (and ultimately, Hatfield) to spend five months studying at the University of Hertfordshire. I have received my student number, booked my flight and I am anxiously waiting for acceptance into student housing. For a stress relief, I imagine the things I will see and do while studying abroad and I look forward to some time where I can be an independent traveller once more. While I adore my partner and enjoy building my life in Vancouver, it will be a nice change of pace to be immersed in a new place for a while.
I can’t wait to get travelling again and get into the habit of sharing my adventures on this blog. Sometimes, my regular life just isn’t enough of an adventure to warrant a post.